We Are Officially TTCing For Baby #2....

Ok just want to put this out there I never thought this day would happen, for over 3 years my husband has stood his ground about not having another baby then around Christmas time he changed his mind.. Not going to lie this terrifies my a little sometimes I feel like maybe my parenting isn't the greatest and who wants to put 2 children through that (but that happens to everyone) but I don't want my son to not have a sibling I was an only child and believe me it is lonely.. I am also terrified because it may not happen and if it does something could go wrong.. Pre-Story..... My husband and I have been together for 7 years (married for almost 5 of them) we had been together for 6 months when one day HE noticed I hadn't had my period so he went and got a test.. In my head I kept telling myself it wouldn't be positive cause we were not ready for that yet but low and behold not even 60 seconds after peeing on the stick it said pregnant I couldn't believe it at first it scared me to death but then I was over joyed and so was my husband.. I went to the Dr. and they said I had conceived in the middle of July so I was about 5 weeks you can't hear the heart beat until at least 8 weeks and for some reason I decided not to have my first "real" appointment (were you see the baby and here it's heart) until I was about 12 weeks.. Well at about 11 weeks or Oct. 6 (I will never forget that date) I was at work and had went to the bathroom where it happened I started bleeding just a little but it still scared me so we rushed to the doctors office.. I knew the whole time I wa loosing my baby but just didn't want it to happen so we sat in the waiting room for about 30 min. then they took us back and did an ultra sound of course it was my worst fear I had miscarried.. The doctors exact words were "well you WERE pregnant" which felt like some one stabbed me right in the heart.. She sent me home to do it naturally I really hoped she had been wrong I wasn't bleeding that bad after all dr. can be wrong right? Well she wasn't when I woke up the next morning it was bad and for the next few days it continued we were devastated.. It took me months to even let my husband touch me again and looking at all the baby items we had bought and we made the very bad mistake of telling everyone before we even heard the heart beat so having to deal with that was heart breaking too.. Life went on though kept working and living life the same as always April came and went (that was the month of my due date it is always hard on me too) and of course every baby shower and childs birthday party we attended was a reminder.. We kept going soon a year went by then 2 years we weren't doing anything to prevent a pregnancy but it just never seemed to happen.. I had made peace with the idea that maybe being a mother wasn't in the cards for me, got busy and started planning our wedding that kept my mind off of things for awhile and as we started into our married life something wonderful happened.. We had not even been married for a month I started feeling really bad so I went to our family dr. (he tried to tell me I was depressed umhmm) he asked if I could be pregnant I said "well it has been 2 years and nothing yet so I can't be pregnant" so he didn't even do a pregnancy test just gave me a prescription for medication.. For some reason a week later I was having an insane craving for hot wings (mild is usually my fav but I wanted them burning hot) so just for fun I decided to get a home test, got home took my test (because it was just going to be another let down) not even 60 sec. after peeing on that stick it said pregnant.. I about lost my balance could not believe what I was seeing it took 2 long years and now I was finally going to be a mommy, first thing I did was call my husband and of course my best friend but no one else didn't want a repeat of last time even though I was so excited the fear crept in.. At 8 weeks to the day I had a dr. appointment to see my baby and hear it's heart beat.. I had never been so scared in my life was it ok, have a heart beat was I going to have another heart break that I could not take? Then the dr. told us to look at the screen and there it was our baby with it's little heart just flickering away, I lost my breath and as tears formed in my eyes I said "look it looks like a little person" cause it has its little arm and leg buds, eyes, sorta nose and mouth.. That was the happiest day of my life after that we told our families but I stayed scared until he was born.. My pregnancy was wonderful the only problem I ever had was my ankles and feet swelled alot (had to work on my feet 6 days a week I managed a restaurant) other than that I loved it!! Then he was born and that became the happiest day of my life and I thought it would be the only one I would have until now.. So that is why I am excited but scared I just don't want to get my hopes up and then have my heart broken again, that was the worst pain physically and mentally I had ever had to endure in my life (so far).. I will keep you updated on how it is going for us and if we will have a baby #2, please pray for us and wish us luck!!